NO LOOKING BACK

Amey stares right through Rahul and me and before we can apprehend what is actually going on he leans towards us and says in a hushed up voice, "listen guys whatever you do don't look back...that guy behind you has got his whole thumb inside his nose." We do the obvious...we look back...
There have been times as well...when we were little kids and we used to be shit-scared of ghost rumors being spread all around. From the teen-mundi devi to the trinklets-wearing chan-chan-chan night walker, but none has been more dead-front than the safed-sari-wali-chudail who used to sneak up on you when you were walking alone in some soomsam rasta lost in your own thoughts and the moment you would turn your head back would just cut it off... Lesson learnt:No looking back!!
Also memories of times when you could officially blame your bad luck for getting your exam seat number on the first bench when in fact it was the toughest exam of the semester. A little luck would have helped a ton. Specially more when the investigator is the same guy whose classes you all bunked and he's on his toes to get back to you...you try and concentrate trying to think of some answers you would never dream of and then you try to take help from your colleague and are rapped on the head..."no looking back", he says in the sternest voice he can manage from his throat.
Those were the times...and now finally having secured a dream job with a great salary and an even wonderful boss and being amidst real friends who care and finding love as true as can I can only pinch myself to make sure I'm not dreaming...
Having lived a nightmarish life for four years of my life craving for the good things I can only take this success as a reward for my perseverance(read wickedness). Sometimes I do feel stupid for the stupid things I had all done earlier (stupid is as stupid does) and my sky-is-falling syndrome seems such a shame for me now. But right now I know, its as simple as that and am enlightened and it dint even take me to quit living. I am so happy I pat myself on the back and rub my hands in glee and gel my hair and look in the mirror and smile at myself and say truly now there is only one way I will go on and there is absolutely no looking back!!!